Tim's

I wrote this roughly about 3 or 4 months ago. I wrote it for my friend, now current boyfriend, when he was deciding to turn to meth to solve his problems.

This boy is probably one of the best things that has happened to me in my entire life. Or close to it. He makes me happy, and he makes me feel complete.

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“Meth”
your more insane then I thought

Listen to me
I hold your head to my chest
I cry, I weep
God, why you?!
Your soul is so perfect,
clean and pure
I will vindicate you
I will hold you close
And never let you go
And I said never...
and Goddammit I mean Forever....
your life, should treasure me
As I treasure yours
Can I be your intoxication?
Your love to be?
Your buried with hate and your empty
So I will fill you up with all of my love
Give you up what is left of my heart.
Baby...i am here
Holding you up
Can you taste that I am near?
Right next to you is your feelings
your emptiness
your feelings begin to disappear
This is all so familiar
I just want to make you smile
feeling your warmth
It is buried in 50 some miles
We may be a town apart
But we could be a World together
Sinking slowly into my arms
When we are together
Your heart...
I will Protect from harm
And as I ache for your warmth on my cheek
Fear and the Loathing
for sanity is what I seek
And for you
I hand you this
These feelings,
My love
This dream
May this insight become reality
my feelings for you permanent
written in ink
As I stand next to the edge,
Leading you into my direction
The air I breath is thick
From you I crave this
Yellow and Blue attention
staring down the road
Can you give this back to me
one.. two... three...Go!
Feeling your touch
and understanding your bliss
the understatement is love
As for you I focus on this
Can you lay me down
Sing me something soft
Listening to how I'm dying
slowly for you and soft
I've given your everything
For what more do i have left?
Feelings are everything
some thing a little more
or maybe a little less

One day

today is going by fast,
and i want it to slow down
i am realizing how beautiful things are today
and i wouldn't trade it for the world

taking joy in the littlest things
make everything seem so much better
Scenario: Driving to school, the wind
was blowing the grass by the RxR tracks
ever so slightly the grass would tilt and spring back up
this reminded me of a stupid dance move my sister and i would do when we were young

yeah, it was stupid, but it made me smile.

Next scenario: i walked into the school building, about 4 minutes to race to class
i grabbed my books and turned around from my locker towards my class very abruptly
i ran face first into one of our football varsity players.
wearing heals, i lost my balance, and he steadied me on my feet, smiled, and said, "watch out girl, your ganna get shmucked."

the kindness of an unexpected person, now that is beautiful. people caring about others in general. yeah, that is beautiful. making love, and not war, thats beautiful.
<3 being in love....
Now that's just gorgeous <3







Christopher David Stansbury <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 ------------

This is some poetry I wrote a while back. I'm not too sure how I came up with it. I'm pretty sure it was influenced by the White Stripes:::::::

Dead Leaves and An Empty Bottle

Baby can empty the bottle

Hes drowning in my

Alcohol and love

Is the blood that runs through me

Today, I lost my feeling

Anymore, I feel apathetic too

So maybe it'll just let you go

I've been standing right in front of you

I hold your hands

And with your one lasting breath

You take me away...

You're drowning me

Your embraces fades

As the night turns to day

And your restless sleeping

In the clouds your dreaming

Of something longer

Something better

Something other than me

But you drowned me right

You're the one who brought me down

But I can feel the distance

I can feel the way you don't want me

Its almost as if this emptiness

...you and me

Us something we've always dismissed

And pretended to give away

Whats in a Title????

Today is a lazy day, slow pace and under control

*I love days like this*

Christopher didn't answer his phone this morning

He's been working so hard lately

and it seems like there is no longer time for me

We don't stay on the phone all night like we used to

-I understand he works hard, and needs the sleep

We don't have good conversations much

-I think there is another girl

We fight constantly

-Because he knows how to push my buttons

and it seems like he pushes my buttons

just so he can recover himself

and we can talk like we are in love again

whats in a title?

Uuggghhh boys.